Perhaps you haven’t thought about the absurdity of our situation. We get an idea in mind and then go in search of that idea’s fulfillment. We leave home to find the answer.
In the physical world of business that paradigm works precisely, however in the world of meditation just the opposite. The Idea is the problem obscuring what we are searching for. And you know that the goal of meditation is Emptiness. Yes, we create an idea about emptiness and then try to discover it. See the absurdity: Fullness searching for Emptiness.
That is a fool’s errand.